"I get a little bit Ghenghis Khan,

don't want you to get it on with nobody else than me."

- It's been 6½ hours. Why did you leave me in the dark? I can't get out.

- It’s a new universe. (other worlds)

- lo and behold, drama follows you everywhere. 

- Awesome.

Polyfonia, post-anxiety attack, 20:17, 2018. 

- Please.

Postscript.

Coming for you

a musical journey

writing: LV

"God knows you've tried, but you can't let go of what you used to have. From the people to the little comforts that made your everyday aboveground pleasant and so easy compared to this. You don't feel there is anything wrong with clinging to those memories although some people certainly like to blame you for it. You just want to see the sun again! Humanity wasn't made to live in the dark!"

"As a servant of the morrow, you do not let yourself be chained in grief and inaction because of things that happened in the past. Instead you work hard and with determination to improve the future for your community and for those you love. This drives your research, where you are meticulous and calculating, yet daring in your theories that usually go further than those of your colleagues. You strongly believe scientific discoveries will be instrumental in leading the way forward for humanity, and as such, one must have the courage to go where the evidence points."

"You don't believe in nourishing dangerous fictions with empty promises that everything will be okay, and you don't have a whole lot of fucks to give about ancient emotional hang-ups that keep people from doing their part. You aren't here to make sure everyone feels "nice", you're here to make sure the barely functioning machine that is the budding society of Thermopylae is well-oiled and that all the parts are running at maximum effort. So when someone from SURFOP is freaking out, putting their team in danger  by making shoddy, emotionally charged decisions out of fear or anger or whatever, you are the one who're sent in to teach them to calm the fuck down." 

lotka-volterra.se

Life hacks #2

Do you also find social media tiresome and emotionally exhausting? Scroll through the feeds just before bedtime to convince your body to give in quicker to the near-death-experience that is sleep.

Lonely? Aquire a radio. The incessantly blabbering voices will trick your mind into thinking you have company, and you help prolong the unnatural lifespan of an outdated, but culturally significant medium of mass communication.

a well-made blazer will make any outfit look professional.

Rethink your anxiety attacks. Anxiety embraces are ice cold, adrenaline-filled hugs. At least something is touching you, even if it is just your own ultimate failure to function. It's been so long.

Are your current worries eating you up? New, more time-sensitive worries make for the perfect distraction!

for an added spicy touch and to escape the sense that every movement you make is just a part of the repition of an endless pattern of pointless biology, whenever you make love, imagine that the sun is burning out and that the destruction of all life as we know it has begun with the crackling opening of the skies and the screams of fleeing masses running through the city about to be swallowed by the earth. Feel free to share this fantasy with your partner. Secretly, we all want to be chosen last - it's the perfect non-committal romance for the post-obligational society.

Life hacks #1

"Blinking brings memories of your wide-open eyes and fear now has the form of your frown."

Darkened, double-eyed, skin against skin, and the faint, postponed breaths of the starving still drawing life. Lay me in water.